Friday, December 04, 2009
angry.
why do i not take initiative and yet expect others to be initiative?
why am i so selfish but expect others to give generously to me?
why do i plan so much but in the end nth ever gets done? jus lik school u noe, every start of the brand new sem, i tell myself i wil put in my 101%. barely halfway thru the sem i don't feel lik caring anything anymore alr.
shoppin hasnt been fruitful. jus as well. spent so much these days. eatin is so expensive. transport is a pain.
disgusting forum ppl. claims stuff to be new and yet the item is so obviously worn a few times such tat i become such a paranoid buyer now. i do make sure watever i say is true. and i tip up when i feel it's not fair to be trading for a new item.
and WHY hasnt that particular blog shop owner get back to me? it has been over a bloody week! at least let me noe my bloody dress got to ur grand condo safe and sound even if u're too busy having a life to send back a proper dress!!!!!!!!!!!
angry. i cant even clear my bloody notes. what if i have to retake those modules? while other ppl whine and write in a chim way about results too, they are most likely lamenting the loss of A+ or A while i worry about passing. SUCKS TO HAVE A STEEP CURVE.
Thursday, December 03, 2009
more brain cells are dead. i can't peel myself away from the computer/forum. T.T even real shopping has lost its appeal. even thou things are so ex. or dont fit. or material sucks. -.- addiction is REAL.
i'm gng to have to borrow some books to read soon. reading, my first love. hahas. =/ dang supernatural. dang bro and his fallout with fren such that i dun have supernat to watch on tv. -.- bleah. will download soon. i think.
so tired but i stil wan to sit in front of the com. it's nice. even if i'm nt doing anything in particular. but mostly talk to hy lar. fun to talk to her. hahas.
sighs.
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
exams are finally over. not that it matter cause this horrid cycle where i hav to torture myself is just gonna repeat 5 more times, not including the CAs stress, rushing of lab reports (i'm quite sure AAS aint the last report i'm going to write).
a pessimistic way to see things, but why let myself get carried away by a mere 30 days of freedom? not nothing acutally, considering i have to clear so many stuff including my clothes and notes and books. i should jus throw away al my notes. yea right. later have to retake p anal, sp (HORRORS) or DFD. al so screwed. HAI. i cant believe it. i have nv entered an exam so ill prepared and feeling so doomed til i entered my current course.
headache is intensifying but i persist on staying online doing goodness-noes-wat. wat a waste of time. blah. not in a good mood. didn't buy anything from bugis. i'm hungry now too. T.T
i've been thinking of the fb quiz which MIGHT jus shows me my one and only hidden talent aka being a linguist. but i'm nt better den anyone at it. my lingusitic is jus better than my other negligible skills (includes chemistry and math). my spelling sometimes is atrociuous. but i do lik to read. not reali non-fiction, but fiction i happily devour. i lik to write provided no one keep correcting me and accusing me of not linking my ideas or pointin out al the sentence structure mistakes or give me a pathetic below average grade when i poured al my heart and soul into the damn essay.
hai. =( self deluded dreamer.
i should do sth about my complexion. i should do sth about my darn messy teeth. T.T AN AL TIME LOW. haiiiiiiiii.
Monday, November 23, 2009
i WISH dreadful p anal is last paper. it's over but i keep thinking about it whenever i study for other things, sleep, bath. -.- i keep thinkin about how i could count on NTH. -.- al the stuff i can rmb is either all wrong or only 1/4 wrong., DREADFUL.=/ first c-. HOW?? *gfreaks out*
sp later sucks. =/ i get so sian everything i think of my pathetic language. =/ how can i be strong in linguistic when al along whatever i write sucks? *doubtful of fb quizzes* but den again, jus because that's my strength does not mean i'm better at it compared to other ppl. jus means i'm better at it than let's say, p analysis for eg. hmm. food for thot. meaning i can nv be exceptional. =/
NVM. i should study. right. even if i dun on the computer i gravitate towards the tv -.-
Sunday, November 22, 2009
p.anal was such a pain. at least i didn't stress the whole week (only on thurs and fri. =/). p.anal was the equivalence of ppda.=/ add in parts that required memorising which i oso didn't noe how to do cause i gave up.=/
spend whole of ytd slacking cause of headache. mayb tday too.
mayb wat kept me afloat last sem was the desperateness and the wee hope that mayb if i try hard, i could stil get B+. but this sem, i've totally given up. mayb i wil start seeing my first c-. mayb tat wil happen for p.anal.=/ hai. =(
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
dfd results. below average AGAIN. nvm. expecting tat.
so given up. i dun feel as stressed. hahas. kan kai le. =) sp is hopeless. mayb i'l get my first C. p anal and dfd hope for b. try to avoid b-. p stats so much work to be done stil. if i can pull thru it, mayb b too. i hav no subjs to get A-. bloody universe was a letdown, the CA2. =(
blah., SHOULD REALI GO STUDY> but there's jus NO POINT. other den, if i dun study, i wil flunk. HAHAS.
ytd was the meteor showers. =( wanted to watch. but wel. =(
Monday, November 02, 2009
damn prac test lar.. wat a waste of time. i've a very strong feeling this wont be as easy as the pnal one. =( jus saw that there's strutured questions. DAMN LAR. *feels an incredible urge to jus give up*
hai. =(