Thursday, March 31, 2005
so it turned out i can't keep myself from the internet. =X
but anyway. i don't noe what i can blog about.. or wat i can't blog about. there's so much to say, but i dun wanna be accuse of whining, or worse, let ppl hate me. see? i'm so concerned about wat ppl thinks of me.
so anyway, anyone have any idea how to really get myself in a study mood? cause yea. i'm still worried about Os. ppl lik herng yue have so much confident in me, thanks!! but i dun have. so there. =P
np tmr. counting towards my _____. and they say cca points not going to be counted anymore?! =X
lonely
i'm so lonely
just some lyrics that caught my attention. hmm..
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
happy birthday to kit yeng!
i'm going to make a speech tmr, during english. *faints* i hope it won't end up as badly as it did it ms wong's lessons. i barely passed with the marks she gave. =X and that marks only served to crush my self confident further. =X
o, change duty nco le. probably they realised i have to take pt. =X nvm. i dun have to wear full u. keep forgetting the downs of duty nco's full u... hahas..
funny how words just get stuck in my mind whenever i stare at this entry page. =x
ok. just remember sth. o levels (fancy forgetting about the Os!). so yea.. mum not at home *furtive glances* good. she keep nagging whenever i go online now. especially that i keep freaking out over the chinese o levels. well, i should be freaking out anyway. as liting had said, THERE ARE TOND OF CHAPTERS! haix. perhaps less frequent entries in the future..
Monday, March 28, 2005
so parade's changed to fri. yay. (pls notice it's a fullstop, not an exclamation mark). so anyway, i'm the duty nco. so yea. things didn't go as i planned..
today. not a good day. early in the morning i did sth wrong. so yea. been a sucky fren lately. and i dun noe wat to do. i'm getting irresponible and insensitive. my recent 'depression period' is no excuse, so y am i still lik that? (be that as it may)
am beyond caring. sometimes everything just sucks. and i've been online for a long time. arrgh.
but hey, i'll try to make a cheerful side to my entry.. hm.. lemme think. today. well, i think i'll do ok (it's OK and not great) on those tests. wat a relief. and nice simin gave me a letter toO! =) cheerios. and chermaine too (though if i go on, good will become bad, because of wat i've done.) also.. no hw! yay! =)
Thursday, March 24, 2005
i like my blog. a lot.. =)
today.. nth much. just that there were lotsa homework.. it's just a good friday!! not a march holiday or sth!!
for now, self-esteem is needed, so is confidence. i wish sth will happen to show that i am not as bad as i think i am, but mayb i am really that bad? lol. so anyway, i get this terrible void feeling whenever i tink about the Os and how i'll do. haiz..
but on a happier note, i like this blog and.. diary.. hahas.. weird me..
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
math is so difficult! =( yea loci.. i dun possesee any common sense. =(
can't blog. parents back. and look at the time? it's late. haiz. perhaps tmr?
after np. feels.. depressed. 10moreweeks?
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
"tmr is going to be crap", says my pessemist self, as usual. campcraft. being in apt department is really another burden for me. haix. but wat to do? sighs... be a lil' more thick skin, i suppose..
but anyway, after tmr, i can be free..!
the social thingy course today was rather.. interesting. hafta looking after my largest organ from now on?
Monday, March 21, 2005
hope i can make this quick. cause there's still lik tons of homework waiting for me. school only opens today! and there's lik so much homework! =X
so anw. thanks to liting (actually have been thinking about it for a while. but it manages to slip through my mind everytime), i too worry about wat am i going to be in the future. i used to be so content with scientist/researcher, but now, my physics results is so weak. and just because my biology is ok, i fancy myself as a biologist? =X i really don't noe where my strength lies. doctor? but i i don't like a work where i have to face lotsa people, kinda intimidatiing.
so yea, since i can't stay online long (i came to print english), perhaps i'll just elaborate it in my diary. there i go again, building walls...
Saturday, March 19, 2005
truely, school holidays are ending...! =( i dun wan!! but.. haiz.. have yet to sleep like a log at night. and i didn't do intensive revision.. =( still feel like hecking everything. school reopening=np starting too. needless to say..
hmm.. now that i can change templete like so easy.. i feel like changing it! =P oops...
i dun feel like saying lots. probably i don't wan to sound like a whiner?
i think i built walls instead of bridges.. ah well..
Friday, March 18, 2005
actually, it's that i love the template!! so nice!! -am so pleased-
=D
finally, i can now declare that this blog is up..! =)
so i guess this was easier than diaryland.. but still, i'm having backaches and everything.. from sitting too long at the computer.. oops. guess i really sat for here too long..
so.. a little, since the last time i updated my tblog was lik soo long ago. this holidays.. rock cause there's no cca. =D yippee! =P but.. homework came in stacks.. three compres?! wow.. and i didn't sleep well at night though i went to bed late and woke up late.
then.. there's this thing about responsibility. i guess i can't call myself responsible. i am such a scatterbrain when the time comes.. and i just don't want to care when the need arises. no, i can't put responsible in my already-so-short list of 'good things about me'.
Thursday, March 17, 2005
ah.. hope this is easier than diaryland..