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Thursday, April 28, 2005

i'm feeling so pissed, frustrated and miserable.

frustrated cause of the shit trigo math. so wat if there's tuition? i still can't solve those shit qn. i'm hopeless. trigo sucks man. i hate it. hate it. HATE IT. so there. forget about o levels. i can just be a road sweeper. after all, i can still help the environment. haha. as in the not funny haha.

pissed because THINGS always LOVE to pop up and RUIN my plan. but i've tuition tmr. so there.

miserable because i'm frustrated at the stupid math. and my stupid specs' screw came loose. screw it. and my father is naggin. am i ever so pissed.

i've been tired the whole damn week. now i noe how it feels to be sleepy lik tzeling. poor tzeling.



signing off
amethyst
8:17 PM




Tuesday, April 26, 2005

paper one yesterday was horrible lor. i almost fell asleep writing my own compo. mayb i was really tired, but i didn't get any inspiration for me to write the greatest compo ever! in fact, the worst compo ever written by me was created yesterday.

and chinese oral. i just NOE i had did VERY badly for it lor. and mdm chong gave such a good mark?? y??! i really DON"T think i deserve it...! arrgh.

napfa tmr. jia you! i'm so pleased with my 2.4km run lor. hahas..



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amethyst
3:29 PM




Sunday, April 24, 2005

oman. paper one for mid years are TMR. and i'm still here. =XX great. better made it short and quick.

yay! promo is over! i'm so happy. i feel so relaxed that i forget tmr's paper one. and my homework are not done. but hey, my promo's OVER! am so HAPPY. yes, forget about mid years and practicals. my PROMO IS OVER!! come on, cheer up with me. hahas. but anyway, promo was.. ok. but hey, only some ppl will pass. and obviously i'm not one ANYof the qiang ppl. but ah well. sgt is ok! there's A lor. hehe.

o, went to watch my sis at NPDP. she QIAO lor. and so zai!! but hey, i focused so intently on her that i could see her figetting lik no one's business. omans. but i still get that wistful feeling of wanting to march too. drills rock! but was having a splitting headache cause was tired after the promo ma. the parade was cool! i lik the toy soldiers part, espcially since it was my first time watching. =)

ok, got to get myself off the com. MID YEARS TMR!! =XX



signing off
amethyst
6:13 PM




Friday, April 22, 2005

i feel so stressed man. PROMO TMR. i shouldn't be hoping to pass. after all, only VERY good ppl den can pass. so help. i wonder how i'm going to fall asleep tonight.

but of course, chem prac left me damn disheartened. duno how to pass it lor. can elaborate more, just that i'm more stressed about promo tmr. haixx.

help!!



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amethyst
10:18 PM




Thursday, April 21, 2005

i improved my NAPFA 2.4KM run!! even though it's like a few seconds.. but i'm still so pleased!! this shows that PT is indeed good for u. hehe.. =P but to get a Gold... hmm. must jia you.

the presentation. i have less than a day???! i'm dead. i shouldn't be feeling too hopeful, u noe. after all, the higher i hope, the harder i'll crash. but hey, that persistant tiny spark of hope is there.

(wah.. am so tired. must be that run la. made me feel lik sleeping in school today. there's always a first time for sleeping in school. hahas.)



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amethyst
9:43 PM




Tuesday, April 19, 2005

i have less than 4 days to do that dreaded ppt for that equally dreaded presentation. haixx.. HELP. u can help me, of course, by telling me how have NP changed me for a better person. pls pls pls pls DO tell me...!! feel free so tell me i didn't change to someone better too. cheerios.

(zihui, ur blog made my com hang le. better hope this entry is not lost)

ok. bio test tmr. and social etiquttie (duno how to spell la) tmr. should i or not change?

o, forgot to mention yesterday. geog lessons becoming more depressing. not only because the Os are coming, but the environment is dying. environment degradation. wat a depressing topic. haixx.. i'll save the environment (or at least try to) when i grow up! that will be my job. my job will have sth to do with that! =)



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amethyst
7:41 PM




Monday, April 18, 2005

cheer up herng yue! bless ur hammie and RIP! =)

today, nothing much, i suppose. except some 'nice' guy sean decides to affirm my believes that i can't pass my ssgt. for sure. so yeah, i'm going to burn my saturday by embarrassing myself, and not pass in the end. haix. *sobs* *chokes*

(OMGOSH I REALLY HAVE TO START THAT PPT SOON!!!!)



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amethyst
7:36 PM




Saturday, April 16, 2005

i'm so stressed that i can't think properly. that's y i'm online. haha. get the joke? mayb not. so lame.

math is xrap. either i can't do the stupid qn, or i get the wrong answer. doesn't help that ppl ask me for the answer and i can't do. nothing is helping. feel so damn frustrated. gah.

oh, promo being next saturaday isn't helping too. even though i noe i'm not going to pass. mayb i shouldn't go. i shouldn't harbour so much hope. it isn't going to get me nowhere. i hsould spent my time studying. and just pon cca. blooddy whoever-that-person-is for not letting us stop cca. i hope we all badly for him to see. hahas. lik the not funny haha.

i suck so much. i don't deserve to be vicechair, especially how i felt after yesterday. i felt so damn fake. watever.

i'm just wallowing in self pity. really.



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amethyst
5:23 PM




Thursday, April 14, 2005

sian. sian. sian. nothing to blog about. haha. all i wan to say is i wish i have time to really start studying. but hell, the school ain't helping, with all the AS thing and 88th anniversary or watever.

did SOME bio, but den liting told me she finished that chapter le. =X great.

hmm, i'm bored of my mp3 le. i wan a new one with BIGGER SPACE! muhhahahas! mayb i zen! =P all because of herng yue!! ahh..



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amethyst
9:44 PM




Tuesday, April 12, 2005

parade tmr. aka slack parade tmr... so yea, most probably i'll be wasting my time again, unless i can get sick. hohoho. not funny.

so anyway, today.. not much. except i'm trying to do the miserable cme project, and of course, ended up blogging. -.- how stupid.

o crap. i forgot i was planning to study for chemistry today since most probably i won't have time tmr. it's already so late and i'm feeling dizzy. gah. with luck, there won't be a test on thurs. -.-

haixxx... i'm almost depressed in my entries. this cannnot do!!

ok, hafta find sth cheerful... hmm.. it's raining now!! -.- not cheerful ok. -.-



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amethyst
7:41 PM




Monday, April 11, 2005

i'm supposed to feel stressed. but i don't. there's mid years, prelims, o levels coming up, not to mention a comfirm-i-will-fail promo test. and most probably i'l be the only sgt to fail. but i don't feel stressed. i'm just feeling vaguely annoyed that i have to waste my time during np, during games and watever. when i could be studying. haix. lik i wil have the studying mood anyway. =(

just a quick blog while i'm waiting for my turn to bath... just back from np. sianx.



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amethyst
7:18 PM




Friday, April 08, 2005

i have seriously no idea how to pass any of my praticals, especially chemistry!! was lik in despair today lor. but hahas.. as usual, liting made me laugh with that really funny expression lor... =) den that stupid test tube cracking was lik the last straw. i forgot that the test tube was tooo damn hot to be cooled by running water. 0.O how stupid. wsa so pissed and i kept swearing lor. was near hyseterics and felt lik giving up. shan't care about it le. and ms wassan was being nice by not making me pay for the test tube.. =)

so today np postponed. trust it to postpone at the lsat minute.-.- ah well.

so much homework. ah. should go offline le. but i can't watch that 'over' mtv with DREW FULLER in it!! arrgh.. i mean.. it keeps buffering.. that it just don't rock to watch it.. ah.. ok, really got to get offline..



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amethyst
5:55 PM




Wednesday, April 06, 2005

hmm.. i think i appear as too miserable throughout my whole life, day. and mayb i am. my tarot cards just decided to enlightened me and show me the inversed 'The Hermit' card, which indicates loneliness and self-pitying. perhaps i am really self-pitying, as much as i hate that idea.

so anyway, was so happy i could go home today. but hell, i missed my 197 bus. i missed it two times!! must have been that black cat which crossed my path yesterday morning.. hahas. =) my brother too was convinced it was that black cat that got him framed by a gal. probably his gf or sth. lol. =P

(superstitiuos me)

i like my blog the way it is now too.. but i want to change again! ah! hahas.. but it'll be hard work, not to mention time-consuming.. perhaps when i'm free. lik after the Os? =X

so anyway... completed my ss notes. but it was only the economic part. cause i redid the whole thing! argh. but nvm, i like my notes the way they are now... =)

feeling rather light-hearted.. =)



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amethyst
9:13 PM




Saturday, April 02, 2005

i can't believe wat that mr foo has done!!! ok. mayb it's not entirely him. but hey, we could have OFFICIALLY step down at may, where i can FINALLY concentrate on studying, but NO. our honourable PRINCIPAL decides the best would be us sec4 step down together, with the performing arts group, after syf, which is at JULY? GREAT!!! am i ever so freaking pissed.

but this time, np (or rather mrs lee) is being nice! though we still have to go for the pathetic attendance, we can study! u're allowed to study. but hey, other ppl's wanting games and field cooking. so i duno wat to say. 0.O haix. lik i'll be able to study even without this thing...

OK, i should go study now. but i dun feel lik caring anything. my life's going to get ruined if this continues. =X

but i'm not caring now. just finished 'the da vinci code' by dan brown. it's the best book! so wonderful! brillant plot! and well, everything's believable to me.. but i daresay some ppl won't like it. hahas.. =)

sometimes. i dun understand u. u make my life miserable and everything. but yea hell, probably i owed u in my last life. but sometimes, u're my good fren. so i duno. mayb everything's just my problem. ha. great. another issue for me. mayb i should take it easy but i just am the type of person who makes everything complicated. me who's just so pessimistic. me who's just so self- deprecating. so i noe my fault, but let's get back to the u issue. i can't understand y i'm making this out to be such a big issue while u just brush this thing off. blah.



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amethyst
7:26 PM