Sunday, August 28, 2005
i tot one was supposed to feel better as the days pass and the medicine supposed to be taken decreases? apparently not. i'm feeling worst than ever, and the only reason i'm online is because i'm supposed to do the stupid testimonial. on top of everything, i have this irritating cramp that comes and go, leaving me in agony. arrgh..
testimonial. I REALLY HAVE NOTHING TO WRITE. REALLY. i'm NOT trying to be modest, in fact, if i am, i would really be over-doing it to the extent that is sounds REALLY pathetic?
A self-motivated and agreeable student, Su Ting is consistent in her studies, as can be seen from her results.
A Staff Sergeant of her CCA, National Police Cadet Corps, she took part in the National Fancy Drill Competition organized by the Singapore Discovery Centre in 2005 which clinched the first runner up prize. Also, she was the Assistant Coordinator for NPCC’s Annual Training Camp in 2004 held at school. As the Vice-Chairman of her class in 2005, she carries out her duties to the teacher and class in a responsible and efficient manner.
A morally upright person, she would never do things against her principles. Together with her strong sense of responsibility, will assist her in her future undertakings. Also a hardworking person, she will try her best in everything to succeed. A cooperative member for group work, she will try her very best in projects, also never hesitating to lend a helping hand to those who is in need.
jus makes me cringe, writing that. and it's not very supported. a teacher lik mdm sia would be able to point out all those unsupported myths. great. nvm. i've spent enough time on this. =(
Saturday, August 27, 2005
i hate being sick. makes me damn miserable and fed up with life. i can't study cause my brain jus refuses to take in those facts, and i don't feel lik sleeping cause i feel it's a waste of time and i jus can't get to sleep. so i jus end up feeling listless.
anw, eng o lvl oral was a disaster. i answered how the man in the pic "IS FEELING" when the tcher is asking what is he "THINKIN". no wonder that mistake my tcher was warning about kept going round and round in my head jus before the oral. but i end up making that mistake anw. sighs. nvm, at least it's over.
got back results. common tests results. as usual, a math jus drains away all my motivation, not lik i have motivation in the first place, but hey, it drains away wat's left of it. eng was not good, cause the paper was supposed to be easy? emath. got lotsa carelessness. the rest i'm pretty ok with it, but i supposed i could have done better?
oh, got back chi o lvl too (did i mention this in th eprevious entry? i think i did rite? but anw, this makes me s0 happy!!). felt VERY relived!!! VERY VERY relieved. and happy too! =) one A secured, now seven more to go. =)))
prelims prac next week. sighs!! am not feeling worried lik i should be. perhaps i'm jus supressin those anxiety of mine? eek. not good. but nvm, i'm never one to work well under stress anw.
and oh, testimonial mus be handed up to mdm sia on mon. SIGHS. i've got nothing to write?? REALLY NOTHING? as much as i'll lik to bluff my way through, i can't. cause evidence is needed. hooray. nvm i'll find a way somehow. hahas..
Saturday, August 20, 2005
i can't believe i felt extreme depress. it jus totally sucks.
first thing that sucks, stupid a math. tuition doesn't seem to help. i get the same jus-past mark i've been getting for major exams for bloody amath. nothing ever helps. perhaps tuiton jus makes it worst, and that i'm jus wasting my parents' money. i am so unfilial. i should jus drop tuition, and hope for the best but mainly prepare for the worst. yeah. cause amath is supposed to be easy? ha. come on. given my puny brain with the inferior intelligent, i doubt i can even understand the most basic of all concepts. and how could i have tot relative velocity would be relatively easier for me with tution? i can't even get the angles of the question right. forget about the the crucial diagram.
and oh. another thing which got me even madder. pissed even such that i was literally filled with extreme hate. -.- i'm tired of the **** ********** and the fact which *** ****** *** ** ****** **** and that i'm lik forever wanting *** *******. yea. time for me to show my temper too. i'm not one who's forever nice and not getting mad. nv been so pissed and nonplussed in my whole life (jus feel lik swearing the whole entry). pardon my disgusting language.
a math is doomed. the sense of impending doom which i felt was oh-so-accurate (sadly). getting back common tests results next week (most probably). most probably i'll feel super depressed and un-motivated with the uqually unmotivating marks while everyone scores and feel motivated. sickening.
my entries are forever depressing sad. do i not treasure nice and happy memories? perhaps i do. but they jus seem so light and fleeting and un-rememberable. oops. have to try to fix them firmly in my mind next time..
Friday, August 12, 2005
i got back my o lvl chi result! and well, it wasn't as bad as i tot it would be. =DD i got a1 and distinction for oral!! yay!! so happy! =)
hard work leads to success =))))
stressss.. or mayb i dun really noe the meaning of that. -.- but really. sometimes it jus all suck. no wonder my blog is so neglected (no one tag) cause everyon'es studying!! i should really be too. but sighs. nvm.
nothing much i wan to say. plenty to say, but i dun lik it to be on my blog. only in my diary. -.- how stupid yea.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
happy birthday to singapore!!! (yesterday, so it's belated now?)
anw, i was out the whole day. hmm.. not really celebrating la. though i kinda wish i could be at the stadium!! i'm sure it would be fun!!
so anyway, yesterday afternoon, wen to expo 4 where there was a book fair. (thanks to jocelyn for the info=)) bought only 2 books! cause stupid sis and bro were complaining lik mad, saying "no books no books". -.- but still, had a fun time with my family. usually have fun times with my family. =) den after dinner (which was sucky as the food didn't rock, and it was expensive), we proceeded to east coast park, to watcht the fireworks!! so nice!! but i'm sure the excitement would be better if we were in the stadium. ah well. perhaps next year? hahas.
anw, came online so early in the morning cause i'm afraid later mum will change the password. sighs. password. stupid. i really wan to come online and play. but no, there's ct and prelims and such. ARGH. HOW TO GET MYSELF TO STUDY. i didn't study much these few days wat a waste of time. mayb i did notes, but those sickening facts jus won't stay in my head. =X
hmm. when will i get back chi o lvl results? sighhs. have already failed letter. won't be too good if i fail oral too. =X and OH. english oral. LOW BAND TWOS ALL THE WAY. =X
ah well, will get off the com and STUDY. STUDY IS GOOD FOR ME. =X sighs. i shouldn't compete with others, but myself (some msg i get from initial D. hee. )
Monday, August 08, 2005
well, i did it. i actually went ahead with my plans. and i should really be studying now. sighs.
eh, added some pic into my pic gallery!!!! go visit!! hee.. hm.. nothing much to say today.. sianz... really can't get myself to start studying.
hmm.. speaking of studying. tuition yesterday sucked. can't stand it. hate relative velocity so much. i'm sure i'll still be as blur even when mrs lee starts teaching. yea. sighs. i'm a regualar idiot at math. =X
(perhaps i'll lengthen this entry later? hee. perhaps not)
Thursday, August 04, 2005
ord's over.. and for once, it was kinda fun! =) but well, it is indeed the last one. last one ever. farewell, another chapter of my life closed. (-.-)
argh. am having a painfully horrible ulcer!!! sighs. it hurts!!!! it really really HURTS!!! -screams- -.- nvm me pls. am whining as usual.
got back oral. it's all band twos. LOW band two i bet. look on the bright side? i didn't fail? -.-
common tests, prelims and O lvls are coming!! so jus what am i doing here? destress?? -.-
ok, since looking at my sis's super long entry, i decided to elongate mine too. =P hee. um. yea, let me talk about ord. so anyway, took pictures. I WAN THOSE PICS!!!!! sentimental mayb? but hey.. i mean.. i didn't feel lik crying, but den there was this sense of finality. =X but i won't deny that i'm feeling not relieved. it's really REALLY time to start studying. mayb ord will WAKE me up so i'll finally get myself to start studying for real. and the thing i lik about np was juniors! hee. huiyu!! u rock!! xiao xiao mei, mus hang on despite all the stuff that life throws u. wat doesn't kill u makes u stronger. u eventually come out stronger!meanwhile jus hang on, annd if u need me, i'll be here. =) nvm about my o lvls if u REALLY need help. =) and yep, there are others to, but time's a wasting, and there are other things to blog about. but i'll jus say.. nv give up!! HANG ON. yea.
lik my oral. all band twos. i felt so discouraged that i nearly felt lik hecking compre test today. NEARLY. yes. but admittedly, i was concentrating on that dumb passage anw. i need results to motivate me...! yes. i am so very discouraged my horrible results. but i'm sure that feeling will pass and i'll continue to jia you. yea.
finally got my hands on harry potter! thanks to jocelyn!! =) thanks loads!! =) and dumberdore DIEEEDD. i cannot blieve it. =X!! ok, i noe about it beforehand, but hey, the truth hasn't sink in i guess. but now it has. that chapter is damn damn sad.
oh, i suppose we're receiving our chi o lvls. -freaks out- nvm! jus relax! and to herng yue too! relax! prepare for the worst and hope for the best....!! after all, there's not much we can do now, rite? i suppose i'll blog PROPERLY when i have the time, when the time's not 10.38pm. yep. nitexx all.