Tuesday, October 25, 2005
chem prac today! slightly better than bio, but i was trembling all the same. arrgh. did titration in more than 20min andd was totally freakin out when everyone started proceeding to the counter on the sides to collect reagents. -.- but ended up ok.. maximum lose10 marks? -.- not very good, but hey, it will be better than the prelims or any other pracs ever! i jus knew it! hahas..
arrgh. perhaps i should got studying now? hmm.
Monday, October 24, 2005
jus a quickie one ( i hope). hmm. mayb i should make this a tradition, as in don't come online for ages, den come online jus before a major exams start. -.- great..! stupid really. all the efforts go down the drain, but hey, i can't help tt i jus FEEL lik going online?
not coming online really makes me feel lik a hermit, expecially now tt there's no school. i felt really cut off.. lik... nvm. but really those blogs "helped" me catch up? hahas
anw.. went nj open house, and hc and rj too. but i'm telling u, i'm only impressed by hc. nj was quite boring- nothing special. but i felt it was acceptable. after all, that was the place i'm most probably going to end up at. but after i went hc, it nj was lik totally boring! (perhaps it was the influence of other ppls? hahaas. i'm so easily influenced) ARGH. dang it. mayb i shouldn't have went hc's open hse. but at hc, there was this really nice gp tcher! asked loads of qn! hahas. and there were really a lot of interesting cca at hc. but well, we all do noe tat the fees are lik impossible. and i don't think i'll be able to get a scholarship anw. sighs.
chem prac tmr. shift bloody 4, not with my class. 27/40 for prelims. need i say more? so wat am i doing here? sheesh.
jia you. i'm sure i can do it for tmr. jus DO NOT freak out and tremour, jus DO NOT freak out!!! i must not shiver and shake the burette and pipette and let all my efforts go down the drain. PLS NO. and hey, i'm armed well with all those wat "agcl is soluble in hcl but not in ammonium soloution", right? PLS BE.
Thursday, October 06, 2005
hmm.. i did say i've got back all the results? so it seems tat i've nothing to talk about except how stress i am and how not ideal are my results. how very boring.
but school's boring. it's nowhere here nor there. i'm not studying very hard, but i'm not slacking my day away either. wat a very difficult situation. but the fact remains.. i'm worried! everytime someone mentions o lvl, i could feel my insides curling up and yet feeling with lead. =/ not nice.
hmm. anw, i didn't plan on going online today.. cause i've still got amath papers to complete! but well, there's this eng project. haix the thing is melvin in not replying. ARGH. and anw, i don't feel lik going offline anw. sheesh.
studying is fun. studying is fun.. yes it's fun. yes i'm trying to convince myself. as long as i can get my momentum and interest in studying back, everything'll be a breeze!! -.-
and oh.. this thing about suicide. everytime my mum hears us saying 'wanna commit suicide', she'll give a glare and say 'don't u dare or i'll whip ur sorry corpse (not really this harsh, but sth close)'. and i'll cheekily retort "ok lor, since i have to repay u first, i'll go SEDUCE a rich guy, get al his money and write in my will for the money to u, den go commit suicide".
smart rite? HAHAS. of course everything's in a light and joking manner, trying to lighten the stressed atmospere. ha.. =p
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
i jus can't seem to stay away from the com, can i? mayb it serves me rite to do badly (CHOY) for the exams.
anyway.. everything is back, except for eng. but nothing is looking too bright. i am truly ashamed for even hoping for an A2. jus look at the way i speak. sighs. nvm. but pls? at the least a b3???
barely made it for bio. jus an a1, on the dot.. with the help of moderation of course. =) but well, i feel lik a failure. i may not be this lucky for o!! OMANS. scary tot. was happy for chem, except for the pratical of course. always goes to pieces for prac. but this time, i've got my theory paper to pull everything up. thanks to it! physics. really sad.. after all, no a1, but hey, i'm kinda relieved to even get an a2.
i didn't make it for math. both maths. HAIX. depressing. i really did practice. but perhaps, my practice's not enough? and i did distract myself with music blaring in the bg? perhaps so. after all, i didn't on music for my humanities, and they turned out to be great! =) note to self: no mmore music for intensive revision. -.- i hope it works. i'm really sacrificing a lot jus by turning off the music!!!
i'm jealous. of someone. wat a sin. i've got to stop this. after all, i'm blessed with many other things. probably not hundred percent exams, but still luckier compared to other ppl. yea. learning to count my blessings..
Saturday, October 01, 2005
sth's still wrong with this posting of entries. argh.
anyway, i didn't get a1 for both physic and bio. and it's not lik i missed a1 by o point sth marks or watever. i missed by quite a lot and thus it's no use asking for one or half more mark. i'l only be wasting my tchers' time. all hope now rests on bio. cause i doubt they'll moderate physics. but bio.. PLS MODERATE AT LEAST 5 marks (but isn't this equal to moderating by one grade up? HAIX).
cheer cheers for my humanities. =) at least i still have sth i'm happy about. but not totally happy. greedy human nature can nv be satistfied. my greedy nature anw. -.-