Tuesday, January 31, 2006
chinese new year's over. the celebrations anw. so yep. cross country tmr. SIANZ. ok, not to mention jts. SIGHS.
today's my chi bday. =) cheers! not having a party anymore on sun. hahas. sis can enjoy hers. =) celebrating mine today, with jus my family. =) yep.
more later perhaps. kinda sian now hahas..
signing off
amethyst
8:48 PM
Saturday, January 28, 2006
hmm.. went back to nan hua yesterday. well. it was ok, jus tt i left pretty quick. but managed to wish ms wassan and mdm surin happy new yr! saw classmates! =) pretty ok i supposed.
ceebrations at vj was pretty sianz.. but well, wat could one expect if everyone was looking forward to after the celebrations so they could go back to sec school?
dun feel much lik blogging. except how i wan to strangle my sis and her idea of a party. i noe, i noe aquarius are supposed to be social animials or sth, but i'm soo not on for a party. A PARTY. ARGH. i am so anti-social. ah well.
signing off
amethyst
1:59 PM
Thursday, January 26, 2006
slackked the whole of today!!! =) slept the WHOLE aftn!!!! HOORAY! i love sleeping! =) heck to the piles of tutorials and lectures to understand. ha.
chi new yr's is heerrre! tmr returning to nanhua.. erms. right eyelid twitched continuously jus now.. ERMS. OMINIOUS SIGN?
bad cough, go away. come again for cross-country. =)
i love the mircroscope. no wonder scienctists lik to play god. even the simplest light microscope made me feel all-knowing, much less the electron microscope and top-notch scienctists?
to drop ALL childish thoughts of romance, and start living for real.
signing off
amethyst
9:13 PM
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
sianz life. obviously i'm slow and everything. i suckk at everything i first try. i have no talent in anything. and usually i jus give up. but this time, i shall preservere (how to spell?). so there. if i am to be made to look lik a fool, so be it. yep.
fell asleep during lecture AGAIN. i cannot blive it. perhaps bio was boring, but CHEM?? wat is happening to me....!
looking foward to chinese new yr. yea at least time to slack.
i wan my confidence and optimism lost so long ago. i wan it now.
signing off
amethyst
9:21 PM
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
jus a quick short note to vent my frustration.
chem suckkks.. it sucks big time. i can't understand it. i mus be retarded. ARGH. it was supposed to be my best subject. HOW. nvm nvm nvm. play play play for the first 3mths. mayb i'll get kicked out to a poly. HA. tt will be a blessing in disguise. HA HA HA HA. *sardonic laughter*
shall channel my pessimism into slamming tmr. ha. i doubt i can. JUS HAVE FUN. *slaps self*
literally slept the whole day today, through lectures and tutorials. but i'm past caring. so tired... must be also the medication i was on. but well.. SLEEP IS NEEDED!
signing off
amethyst
9:15 PM
Saturday, January 21, 2006
i'm thinkin how some vj ppl look lik ppl i've known from nh. wat a funny way to get nostalgic. anw.. i miss everyone!!!! sighs! finally do i miss someone! perhaps the returning to nh on new yrs celebration will be great! no more diff uniforms, but everyone'l be in plain good old nanhua u!
having more troubles with chem, bio and math. math's only to be expected.. but chem AND bio?! ONO. i miss ms wassan too!! she was the best ever chem tcher!!! ahh.. lectures totally suckkk... imagine having this oh-so-lame lecturer, such tt i can only catch his lame dumb jokes and roll my eyes, but totally can't understand wat he's talking about. talk about sheesh.
i supposed vj's the best school for me now!!! need the loyalty points.. and well. i've more or less adapted to it. unless they reshuffle the class? BOO. but well.. nice ccas!! lik harmonica (sounds kinda tame) and JUDO!! yay! =) i'm having fun gettting slammed and slamming ppl in return. HAHAs. =p but well, first i MUST MUST learn how to get slammed properly.. or else.. it's goodbye great life.
omans........ some ppl are receving letter.. about going to be a tcher. if u did receive, u're doomed.. cause it's high probabilty tt ur o lvls aren't great. OMYS. HOW. ok relax!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omans...
signing off
amethyst
2:56 PM
Saturday, January 14, 2006
another week of school gone past. and well, the release of o lvl results are drawing ever closer!!! how funny tt jus as i started accepting vjc bit by bit, it may seem after all i can't remain there. according to someone, this batch of graduating nanhuarians did badly den expected. yaylet'sallgodie. SIGHS. nvm
wat can i say? i thought once things settled down after the orientation, things will get for the better. apparently not. fun's tough, but work's worst. wat is wrong with me. -.- sheesh. i can't belive i'm actually having trouble with chem now. it WAS supposed to be my best subject. so look at wat happened to my supposedly best subject. i wonder wat will happen to my worst subject hahas.
o well. depressing entry, no? tt's me i guess. BOO to the broken resolution. So there. hmmpf.
signing off
amethyst
5:38 PM
Saturday, January 07, 2006
conflicts i hate. things seem to come in alternate, bad and good. and funnily, the good seems to last only for a while, and the bad lasting for eternity. currently experiencing the bad?
yesterday.. at least things were stil with the og. and i realised victorians are talented, spontaneous and enthusiatisc bunch of ppl. talented all-rounders. well.. obviously i don't fit such a profile? how can i remain there? -.-
the only thing was fun... mass dance!!! at suntec city at the fountain of wealth. =) of course before tt,everyone was already feeling high, and i felt reali crappish. but when the rain came, it jus about washed away all constraints i shackled myself in. and finally, some fun. ah well. =) i supposed it's y they call tt state "high". after all, it's very difficult to get to tt state, and u have to climb real high. i started by dropping my self-consciousness.
don't feel lik saying much more. see.. the conflict stil isn't resolved, and i got to get myself outta my dream world. being incoherent here. but who cares.
signing off
amethyst
12:38 PM
Thursday, January 05, 2006
making fren... is easy in vj i supposed.. hahas. everyone's jus so frenly and open.. and scarily spontaneos. i supposed tt's good for an extrovert, but i'm not. do i have to change to fit in?? jus as i was getting comfortable in my grp, they're making us seat in classes tmr.. and adding houses in.. sighs. i've no idea wat i'm going to do. be frenly again i supposed. but it's tiring. i'm tired. sighs.
my appeitite's all messed up. can't have a proper lunch. i hope at least tmr i can have a proper dinner with victorians. yea i can! *being optimistic*
dancing.. can be fun i supposed. but i jus wish i had the talent, and tt i'm not clumsy or klutzy. i supposed tt when i reali dance enjoying it, i feel free.. but when i jus don't get it, i feel lik a failure. and feeling lik a failure does not go well with the already-so-broken resolution to be optimistic.
signing off
amethyst
8:44 PM
Monday, January 02, 2006
happy new year.. doesn't feel lik the new year though.. it still feels lik the hols. and well... orientation *turns green*
my resolution: i shall try to be more optimistic and confident. it's lik very difficult for me... so i shall try to keep it at two? hope it'll help me out with the fear of my optimism. *being optimistic*
well... my last time at com slacking out. when school reopens, there'll be no time.. yep.
signing off
amethyst
7:37 PM