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Sunday, March 26, 2006

ok am supposed to do some research on tom yum soup and green curry for some event for interact, but i can't find no stupid crap info tat's relevant. that's the problem with freaking internet and google. or mayb it's jus tat 'm too dumb to narrow down my field of search.

anw, jus a quick update on my life? am worried, stressed and depressed. i've got so much work and too little time, and stil wat's my problem, fancy taking up so many ccas. -.- am worried over my decision to continue h2 econs. but honestly, wat's the point of taking so many h2 when in the end u have to have one subject at h1? but i can depend on my sciences or math. used to think science was interesting and got so encouraged when i scored so well. but now tat my results lik lik shite, i've totally lost all interest and motivation. results motivate me, u see. and well. perhaps this is yet another obstacle/stage in life, and perhaps i'll nv get over my o lvl results however much i want to. back to eocns, i can't drop econs to h1 cause somehow i got encouraged by my 17/30 recent econs test and i've got this weird notion tat left-handlers lik me are good in humanities. someone shoot me please. but wel, the chance to drop econs to h1 is now gone. have to wait till after midyrs and i hope (no i pray) tat i made the right decision.

another seriously worrisome (i do worry a lot, don't i? but well, we, of the orange breed are lik tat) something. PW. SIGHS. SIGHS. if i end up with a grp i can't get well with, someone please kill me. sighs. supposed to do sth (perhaps research) for the wat prelimary report for pw, but i duno how to start. no fresh earth-shattering idea tat will get my so motivated and well. SIANZ.

another new week, and thus back to stupid mondays and tuesdays which are days tat seemingly nv ends. weekends are not much cause' they're lik complusory for catching up on work (no slacking, mind you), but i jus slacked today and read the pile of over-dued library books. nth to look forward to. great. wat a totally depressing entry. perhaps sth happy (since everyone subconsiously WANTS a happy ending). erms. (omigosh, i't s THIS bad. i can't think of anything happy) i love my family. (mans how very lame). and OH. THERE"S KY"S BDAY NEXT WEEK!! HAPPY BDAY IN ADVANCE!!



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amethyst
10:11 PM




Sunday, March 19, 2006

ok things not done. crap gp project, econs essay and all the sciences stuff! OH NO.

but anw, got my new mp3 player!! ah. it's VERY nice. but very ex too. tat's y i'm feeling DARN guilty.. but sighs. ah well. it was a present for my bday from dad. very belated but well, better late den nv, no? =)

so there goes the march hols. sianz. school reopening again. nth to look forward to, except perhaps getting to wear the oh-so-new uniform? ahh..



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amethyst
3:05 PM




Wednesday, March 15, 2006

i feel lik i'm back to my old pessimistic no confidence self, minus the motivation to work hard. how very nice. -.- anw, perhaps i did break outta my cocoon of shyness during vj's o1, but well, the painfully sianz and un enthu me is back. not a good think i suppose. but perhaps it has sth to do with we me feeling extremely settled in my comfort zone. =X

anw. there's loads of work to be done. SIANZ. tot econs could be interesting. i tot wrong. i totally do not understand the latest chapter. perhaps i reali shouldn't have skipped the lectures (it's LECTURES with a s, mind you). ah. chem and bio isn't much better. but hey, at least i understand? still have one chi compo to write! arrghh....

tmr there's harmo. sianz. great i'm once again, "forced" into a cca i'm not enthu about. of course it will so help if i turn out to be a prodigy at harmonica. but apparently not.

my "schedule" for this hols is packed full, with not time for hw, yet i am still feeling "yea i'll have tmr". how very wrong. =X



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amethyst
10:35 PM




Sunday, March 12, 2006

hmm. since there's a DEMAND for update, an update there shall be. =)

this week. nth much ba, i mean, there's not much change for me. i'm still in s37, with my wonderful bunch of frens. =) hmmm.. we ponned o2 together!! =) and we snuck outta school during o2! wahahhas! =) den we went out. =) fun fun! =) but well.. =)

hmm. it's back to lessons and such lor. it's alright with me. it's the tests tat i'm not ok with. sighs. i'm beginning to hate tests nowadays lik poison. it's jus i don't feel very good taking tests. i jus NOE i won't do very well. and knowing i won't do very well, i won't study very hard, and thus the bad results. ah wat a vicious cycle.

hmm. wore vj uni for first time yesterday (went to science centre for the singapore science and engineering fair. quite ok la. but well.. i didn't lik the fact the booths were stuck so closely together and it was so crowded and i didn't feel lik learning more about their projects), and i lik it! hehe!! =) makes me feel oh-so-jc-liKe!! =P hehe.. =)

well, the hols are coming. and wel. so much things to do, and so little time. wel. i have reali got to drop some ccas.. but which one??? currently considering harmonica, judo, science research society, global affairs society and interact. hmm. harmo is lik compulsory cause u i already bought the stupid instument. global affairs is to kill time while waiting for harmo, and i am interested in judo, but it's jus so damn late to start. science research? i'm afriad i''ll end up with nth. sighs so how?! arrgh.

nvm. i still have loads of hw to catch up with. and oh. they're not reali called homework anymore. they're tutorials and assignments. hahas... =)



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amethyst
8:32 PM




Saturday, March 04, 2006

posting results are out. and wat can i say? things aren't exactly fine and dandy for everyone, but i'm relieved for wat i have.

but i am extremely grateful for most of the things tat happen. for one thing, i can remain in vj. so can my frens (viki, minsi, hui hui and junli =)). after all, i am already starting to settle and feel very comfortable. imagine the trauma if i reali can't remain and have to fight via appeal!!

things that oh-so-suck. firstly, ky has been posted to hc!!! ahhh. ok this doesn't exactly suck, after all, greener pastures and everything. .but still. I"LL MISS YOU! thanks so much for the wonderful times!!! especially the support when we all have to approach ppl in the new strange environment! i wish u all the best!!!

i hope sihan can make it back to vj!!! i hope momo can PROVE to them that she's da scholor for the a lvls!! i hope.. those leaving 06s37 (UNFORTUNATELY) can cope. because if it's me who's leaving, i dun think i can cope. i would most prolly jus crash and burn all alone.

congrats to jane, yiling and all those who remain/got into where they wan! =) ll the best, and enjoy the two years!=)

ok, o2 on mon and tues. shall find a way around it. i mean, wat's the pt of putting us into new ogs and everything? sianz. mayb someone up there will help me and i'll fall sick. HAHAS. -.-

if your abilities are merely mediocre, modesty is mere honesty; but if you possess great talents, it is hypocrisy- melvin



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amethyst
12:18 PM




Thursday, March 02, 2006

i should learn how to appreciate things i have now.. last time, i always worry about being extra of everything, but now, i found frens in vj, and yep. am very glad for tt. thanks minsi for reminding me about this! =)

second thing. i should stop slacking have squash tat secret superiority complex, simply cause i'm not superior in any way. i should start reali bucking up on my studies. especially chem (i FAILED the FIRST chem test of the year, first chem test of my JC life!!!), and econs. and bio. -.- ok everything. -.- but when will i start?

am starting to feel comfortable le. wat if i can't remain in vj. Den most prolly i'll kill myself. HAHAS. no joke. ok. shall not brood on it.

should most probably get my butt off and START DOING SOME WORK!



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amethyst
8:12 PM