Friday, January 25, 2008
al those who are bored of working, please raise ur hands up. al those who feels like u're not learning anything in ur job, raise ur hand up. mayb it's jus only me. blah. spent today slacking BUT pretending to be busy lest the bosses see me. =X and fire me. but mayb that would be a good thing. stood in toilet for 10min waiting for time to pass cause i can't be seen slacking outside. sheesh. my boss looks lik mr ho aka my scary math teacher for j1 and j2.
but u noe wat? it's ok. cause. cny coming! and my bday! WILL ask for ex gifts. hehe. got two in mine already. a nice EX bag sth lik crumpler (or anything else that wil work as school bag la) and those kind of ex fountain pen. but the only ex brand i noe is mont blanc lehhhh.. any other brand u noe?? PLS PLS tel me..
hmm. am hungry..
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
got a job near my house. i can practically walk there in 5 min, and that feels good. but wel, job's kinda boring and when i think about how others are learning loads of stuff in banks, law firms or accountacy firms, i feel like i'm at the losing end. but no matter, it's just a job.
anw, the main thing i wana blog is about. how i found someone's blog. this someone is working in citibank cap sq. she started only this week. and her boss is the scary woman boss who keep giving me looks of comtempt when i was getting fired (technically it's nt fired, but it feels lik being fired to me). it feels to me like she's my replacement leh. like the got rid of me and get someone else who is more flexible and can happily work ot. blah. i feel disgruntled. and jus plain weird la. sighhs. but she's not in the department i'm supposed to be in if i sign the contract. but blah. it's over over over. focus on the future now.
on my future uni courses? i hav no idea stil. spent tuesday staring at al the pamphlets before realising i was coming down with the flu (again) and went to sleep. and no i did not dream about anything motivating. hahas.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
to cheer myself up, i suddenly got a great idea! i'll think of wat i can DEMAND for my bday! it's coming sooN! ^^ yay!! =)
Saturday, January 19, 2008
hahas. 'im currently unemplyed. hmm. it's not like i got kicked out. technically, it's jus my assignment ending ahead of time, but let's jus also say i noe the feeling of those who got fired, those who feel lik they're facing a midlife crisis. hahas. the feeling is lik.. i have no job, and no love of my life (-.- ok this is VERY pathetic). feeling is jus overwhelming. but i got over it. =) don't i always do.
but nvm. let's look on the brighter side of things? i can finally get the time to properly sit down and think about my career (if i'm gooing to hav any =X). i should start thinking wat courses to take. i'm lik at THE cross road of my life. =/ i envy ppl lik liting, who already has everything mapped out in front of her. of kityeng who also has a liking for double degree at ntu (the tcm one). like people already have an inkling of what they want to do, so i should too, right? WRONG. nvm.......... i'l er. start exploring the different courses, after this weekend of course ( i am such a procrastinator). after al, i hav al the time in the world now. -.- okkkkkkkk. i WILL reach a conclusion. i wil................
Sunday, January 13, 2008
so long since my last entry. and of course, things does change. lik for one, i've got a job. it's at citibank. it's not nice. but i'm not going to start whining about how having a job is not fine cause the previous entry, i was whining about looking for a job. but anw. working is a whole new experience. like. i get to taste the office politics ppl are always talking about. i get a taste of not liking someone, especially when that someone's supposed to be ur superior. not tat i hate my superior la. but things can get irritating at times. and anw, i dont reali noe who's my superior. which is weird. hahas. so i'm kinda confused. anw, i realised too that i lik doing things alone too. especially for work. i dun lik ppl to help me or watever when i'm doing my work. it's lik, either i do it alone, or u do it for me. or else things become very messy and irritating. i guess that lucky for me, work is usually done alone.
of course, being alone for lik 8 hours gets anyone miserable. i supposed tat's y during lunch they interact lik it's the end of the world? which i dun lik. and when i feel miserable/left out/extra or wat, my appeitite totally goes out of the window. and ppl begin asking qns, or worst, make jokes at my expense. haha, lik not funny. but wel, jus giv a smile and pretend i'm mute. it's easy reali.
been dreamin about a lvl bio and harmoc. sheesh. as much as i would not lik to think about getting back my reslts, that thought jus sneaks up on me lik anytime. and i get sweaty palms and feet. =X i noe wat's gonna be the worst, gp and econs (which is kinda sad cause i kinda lik econs). i noe chem's not gonna be too bad, but compared to ppl from rj and hc, mayb my not-too-bad's gonna be very bad. but wel, it's al about relativity. i'm at relativity's mercy. and luck too.
lastly, things i reali hate and loathe? they're call conflicts. or getting ppl irritated or pissed off with me. or not knowing there's ppl angry with me. sheesh. it's lik the primary/secondary school nightmare al over again. but of course, in primary school, it was v much obvious because being the kids we are, we express our anger and displeasure in a much more obvious way.
ok. on a happier note, my birthday's coming!! and that it coincides with chinese new year too! new clothes, and a birthday wish! hahas what shall i wish for? i tend to take this bday wish SERIOUSLY. and i'm thinkin about it now. wat's so important on my life list right now? i shal wish with al my heart. i believe in bday wishes, do u? =) it comes only once a year after al. doubt i'l get many presents this year, but it's ok. i'm used to it, being a feb baby and al. =)
ok. lunch. den tuition. yea no life i noe. but it's ok. work hard has always been my motto. althou this particular motto has been a let down in my jc life, what's imprinted in my mind when i was that young impressionable age sticks forever. yep.