hhahas! watch one more grey's anatomy again! nice! =) as in, how marvelously rich human to human interactions can be, and how complicated, and basically how stressful a doctor's life can be. thank goodness i nv had the noble aspiration to be a doctor. perhaps one fleeting second. that faded as quick as it came, i assure u. =)
ok. anw. work tmr. sian. =X %^&*(*&^%$%^&*(*&Y^%^&*( if only if only IF ONLY. sheesh. but nvm. at least i hav my wonderful working space now. no more poking of someone else because of lack of space. hahas.
signing off
amethyst
10:25 PM
Friday, March 28, 2008
hmm. previous post was stuck in draft for so long. anw. i've yet to decided if i shld chnage my options. but watever la. i dun think i'm gonna get any scholarship interviews, so most likely i'm nt doing business. kinda disappointing i didn't get ANY interviews, buti kinda expected it, so tat's y i didn't try too hard for my essay. waste my time. =X but still, stupid gp. i'm lik plainly ignoring the newspapers now. revenge is sweet! =P
jus finished another 2 episodes of grey's anatomy. NICE. =) mans i'm so english. -.- only wat the eng shows. but it's REALI nice. thou there arent lik 2 hot guys occupying the screen al the time (think supernatural), but it's REALI nice and touching, and thot stimulatiin. my thots anw. hahas.i wan watch heros toO! but reali. i wan watch a lot of things. i would prefer it to watch on the tv screen, but i'l make do with wat i hav. =) i wan watch csi tOO!! gosh. i jus don't hav enough time! hahas.
work is stil a pain in my butt. but mayb it's jus all in my mind. lik always, i build lik invisible walls around me and accuse the rest of the world for not being my frens. sheesh. i have issues. independence and confidence. i wish a fairy would grant me my wish. there i go into fantasy world again. T.T
zzz. can feel another headache sneaking up. but i wan watch grey's anatomy!!!!!
hmm. i think. some ppl's blog depress me. but some are enjoyable. it's easy for myself to see whose life i'm interested in. but mayb it's jus the comfort zone. hahas. sometimes, i feel lik an old woman. T.T but if so, i won't be worrying too much. would be quite serene and ok with watever life throw me.. argh!
signing off
amethyst
11:10 PM
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
today.. i decide i wan a relatively less depressing or sianz post (even thou it's only TUESDAY and there's stil a looooong way to go for irritating work). but anw.
i've not yet decided wat course to take leh. i mean, i've a vague idea, but it's two sets of vague idea. =X it's either business or sci. i'm more inclined towards sci seeing it's SAFER (i've been doing sci for the past decade??) but business'l be interesting even thou my gp sucked. i kinda tired of sci.........................
$%^&* there's sth wrong with the stupid payment of nus application fee. HMMPF.
signing off
amethyst
7:45 PM
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
office politics reali sucks. makes me damn sick. especially when one is at the receiving end. but to be honest, i'm not much of a saint myself. feedbacking others can go both ways.. so yea to stop feeling angry/indignant, i constantly reminded myself that i'm oso guilty of complaining/bitching about the person. not thru email using strong, highly subjective adjectives to describe the person la.. but somewhere around there oso. guilty guilty guilty.
stil can't get over the freakin D for gp. hate the sight of newspaper. lik y shld i bother when i tried so hard and got nth anw? but watever la. i'l get over it. lik how i got over b3 for chem.=) realI! how i wish i could once again slack the whole day on my bed reading and reading nth but fiction, fantasy. escapist. =X hate working laa... feel lik i'm wasting my time when i'm not gonna choose accountancy as first choice anw? but nowadays it's not so bad. cause i've stuff to do. den i won't spend my time moping or overthinking. but reali redoing stuff lik a hundred times makes me feel lik puking sometimes. seriously. but it's ok. cause. i'm learning stuff, which is wat i always wanted in a job!
applying for scholarship oso sucks. i'm supposed to look at nus scholarship now, but comp is so screwed up and the damn form is in adobe format. arrgh. lik i'l get it anw, with a big D. so i worry about my D, while those with B for GP worry about not having a h3. sheesh. nv ever be satistified i think. okkkkkkkkkkk..
change is lik coming. so much changes this year, with ppl leaving for overseas studies... haix. i seriously feel lik i don't noe wat to say. =X
signing off
amethyst
9:48 PM
Friday, March 07, 2008
hmm. i got my a lvl results. lik finally. my two years studying so hard all for today.... and it wasn't too bad, except for gp. but it's ok, cause even krishnan who totally understand al the chim politic stuff and is ever so updated on current affairs got c. so i, the person who has poor eng, a disorganised mind and terrible indifference to watever's happening ard the world, of course screwed up my gp even more. a D! but watever la. i tried my best k. i read up newspapers, and did my best, but i guess i shldn't have tried to spot the qn. so i shal make peace with myself for that.
on a happier note, i scored straight As for the rest (excluding PW la, but watever oso).!!!!! happy. =) hard work did pay off (mayb nt gp la, cause u need luck for that?). i cannot believe i actually scored A for econs, it's a MIRACLE! ^^ cause i noe i totaly screwed up one essay. AHHH. =DDDDD happy. i stil can't believe it. i couldn't belive shi tian when she told me she saw my name on the board.. ahhh.. =) stil abit can't believe it now. mayb i shld check my result slip again.
but of course, credit for this wonderful results does not belong to me alone. it's much thanks to my school, my teachers (ms lee, mr chua, mr toh and mr ho) and my frens too. i believe viki helped much, as did the rest of the tutorial gang! hahahas.. goshhh.. =) of course my parents for their support la, even when they couldn't help me with my work...
i shal sleep fitfully tonight! =DDD even thou i'm lik kinda doubting my eng ability.... lik can i even teach eng for tuition?? =( but nvm, that's tmr's problem. for now, enjoy the fruits of my labour hahhahahs.. and of course, think of wat course i wana apply.. =X i might jus forget that i need to apply by april u noe, with this no-life hectic work schedule of mine. =X
signing off
amethyst
11:04 PM
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