Monday, September 29, 2008
i realise i've been willing to give up on the wrong stuff. the other one is more impossible then the already quite impossible one.
i should buck up. i should pull my non-existent socks up. i should, i will, I COULD.
i miss the past now. funny how i didn't do that in vj. but now i do......
"when we were young"-by human nature. so many old songs now lost forever only in my mind.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
got back the result for my first test ever in N U S. and. this could have been a superbly depressed entry... but hey i shal choose. do i reali wan this to be TAT depressed?
mayb i do. =X sheesh.
recess break coming to an end. zzz. i dun feel lik studying now (stupid depressing result).
ok now i dun feel lik bloggin. mayb i shld delete this worthess entry.
anw. i jus started on my 11th diary. hm..
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
hmm. i'm so sick and sian of studying. =X but unfortunately, studying's kinda the best thing i noe how to do. =X
erh. thank god ppda mid term is over. but phy pharm gives me the equally horrid feeling. =X so much calculation and equations. i don't mind jus studying for physio and anatomy (even thou there's loads to memorise, but i sorta giv up trying to memorise so much anw) but phy pharm and econs keep creeping into the back of my mind. I SHLD BE STUDYING WHY AM I BLOGGING? T.T
hmm. once this mid term is over, my tuition'l be over. and i'l be a relatively free person oso. =X hopefully. but there's stil driving,. -.- i MUST pass the S course the nxt lesson!! can't afford to waste any more $$. =(
hmm. i can't believe last time i actually thot i could be an extroverted person. puh-lease. jus because once i am comfortable with that grp of frens and i start yakking away non-stop, or feel happy ard my frens, i am soo NOT an extrovert. i can hardly relate to ppl v well, and usually feel awkward and embarrassed ard new ppl. sheesh. and i've this naggin fear of crowded places. -.- how silly... =X alrighty den, so i'm a true blue interoverted person. hahas.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
are honours impt or not.so irritating. i dun feel lik caring about stupid studies now. partly cause' it'l be rather futile to compete with al the extremely smart ppl (who can jus go up and present about anything under the sun) and partly because i'm soo tired of competing and working so hard. and i wan to change my life goal. -.-
CAs are ccoming. and hooray they clash with my tutee's final exams too. i wonder if i'l get out of this unscathed. =X
anw. despite regretting gng p h a r m a c y, i dun regret choosing p h a r m over e c o n s. simply because econs is so full of crappy math and graphs and such. y must anyone add in stupidd math to make rather fun theories more complicated? can't reali cope with my elective (hmm. wat do u call the mod i take to satisfy my university requirem to graduate?) econs much less econs as my mojor. so. pHEW i didn't take econs. else' i might jus end up hating the thing i actually like.
so the nxt thing to do.... hear bad things aboutbiz and acc. so i noe i've chosen the lesser of the two evils. and hearing huihui talk about al the stupid shit she has to deal with for projects, mayb pharmacy might turn out to be the lesser of two evils.
falling sick le.... zzmt nasal cavity all clogged up and it's giving me a headache. andi can't sing properly to the music. hahahs. zz.... and so totally decreases my productivity...not lik i'm v productive in the first place. but watever la. it's so tiring to keep wondering if i'm lagging when i'm obvious am. yea. i'm ranting and ramblingnow. dont make much sense.
i need to find the sec four bio tb too. T.T the heart chap to too cheem. i need to have an overview.
Monday, September 08, 2008
hmm. im srsly addicted to the computer. and music. must focus. today's ppda test horrid. =X
Sunday, September 07, 2008
this is where and when the regret starts to creep in.
i regret doing pharmacy. &(^ it's full of chemistry which i thot i had left behind in the last chemistry a lvl paper. the bio-ish mod are interesting, but i'm lik lagging in tat ALL BECAUSE OF PPDA. this sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks.
mayb acc would be better. mayb. mayb the loong journey home frm ntu won't matter so much. mayb.
i have a headache. can't think straight. can't MUG even if i wanted to. zz..