Monday, August 31, 2009
i haven been writing argumentative shit tat makes sense for a very long time. al i do these days is jus whining on blog and diary, and the copying of horrid factual chemistry stuf. my sentences are usually long and rambling with no proper organisation. and now al of a sudden i'm expected to write concise short sentences for brochures and do rhetoric citations are are oh-mans-darn-chim? sighs. sp. comm. mod. plain sucks.
grammer and language could be fun (especialy when ms wong explains the grammer). but when it borders onto chim debatable linguistic stuff, pls spare me. T.T
Sunday, August 30, 2009
i shld've discovered the joys of painting nails during the holidays. WHY did i start painting my nails only now when i obviously don't hav enough time?
it's fun to paint. skills are needed to achieve an even coat of paint ok. even thou my nails are short now and i must repaint again when they grow out. it's fun! >< it's lik art. so much of science the past decades, it's time for arts! =P
sp communication module can jus go and die. =/ i think i must work harder for the brochure as i predict i would crash my argumentative essay, but i jus don't hav a great inspiration. =(
Thursday, August 27, 2009
it's not even a mth since school started and i feel lik dying alr.
now it's a horrid combination of calculative chemistry and general paper.
today was such a bad day.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
i dun lik to think i'm so irritatingly hypocritical, but mayb it's jus my rather confused, unbalaced, not equilibrated mixed up nature?
lik real. -.-
i whine about havin so little frens, but when the opportunity for me to increase my frens come (think camps,orientations), i shy away and retreat into my own little safe world.
i'm jus real scared. and this is no way for a 20-year old to behave. i shld go out boldly and party hard. -.-
but one thing tat's definitely not mixed up is tat. no matter how hard how positively i talk myself to about studies, 99.9999% of the cohort is stil better than me.
once upon a time i told myself studies was more impt and i mugged my life away without even realising it. now tat i realised i cant possibly excel in studies, am i gng to continuing using studies as an excuse, or step out into uncharted territories where i risk much but could stand to gain more about the other side of life?
depressed. pracs haven even start yet and i'm already swamped with stuff i dont understand. even thou i paid attention. even thou i read my lect notes.
Monday, August 10, 2009
school's starting. is there another way of whining tat other den whining and complaining? BLEAH.
jus saw my life sci fren's blog. she has no lab this sem. i hav labs for three mods. wonderfully fantastic.
ok i feel damn sian and irritated and wth depressed. not a good wat to start a new sem. not even the music can lift the heavy feeling i hav in my heart., -.- bleah being over dramatic again.
schoooll.... school... school.
school is starting is less than 24 hrs. zz. 8pm lect thruout the whole sem. i can't sleep late now. jus as when the lift upgrading is almost complete. -.-
nvm it's ok i'm resigned to my fate. hahas *curses timetable*
ok lar. overall this holiday wasn't a complete waste of time. even thou it might be a waste of money. i stil hav yet to donate blood. -.-
national day tdy. as each year passes by, national day seems to hav lesser meaning. jus lik my bday. oh but i dread even more for my bday. -.- but it's ok. al the social studies brainwashing in secondary school paid off cause i'm proud of sg even thou i might not know ALL the national day songs. =)
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
i can't stand being a hypocrite. arrgh. there's so many things i think, but do differently. mayb it's lik purple- a conflict of red and blue. if only i can reach the equilibrated harmony of purple. -.- because i wish i could be lik purple, that's why my fave colour is purple.
on a more wants side, i want to watch keane in concert! =( i've nv yet watch a concert in my whole life. mayb keane's not reali a fave band, but i think i noe their songs. i dun think i hav a particular band/singer i lik (other den HOTTTT and sexy enrique iglesias maybe><)keane's somewhere only we belong always reminds me of lake house (keanu reeves! ><)
i want a new handphone SOON. =( or mayb my beloved w902 back. =(
i nv want school to start too. back to 3? 4? mths of torture SIGHS. where content is crammed into a few mths of studying, memorising... where i wil feel oh-so-useless again.... zzz mayb unviverse wil help me hav some fun. even if in the end i might be the one who gets B- because my writing skills suck (think dismal grade for GP). i can happily do a colourful feeling-filled narrative, but not some argumentative factual crap that's a "blimey, wat a waste of parchment" (as ron weasley says about hp's letter) when u argue two sides of a story and come to some nonsensical conclusion. or mayb it's jus my crappy conclusion. \\
nvm. happily enjoy my last few days of lovely freedom. i realised my hobby other than reading, is listening to music. yea yea trasy popular music tat eventually gets replaced by another bout of trashy music, not everlasting classicals.. but it's enjoyable (lik so many other bad things out there, lik eating junk food-.-). so there. and am currently obsessed with new radical's "someday we'll noe". the lyrics are so beautiful. and yes, i noe eng songs tend to hav meaningless repetitive lyrics.. but chinese sont gs are so monotone in their music. and rather flat.. i duno. =X at least sis doesnt LOVE chinese music anymore (but korean songs. which isnt too bad other den the fact tat listening to songs in other languages give me a headache aft a while) and bro is obsessed with bangy loud eng songs tat i dun reali lik. =/