Thursday, October 29, 2009
today was such a bad day. but i simply cannot feel anymore. it's lik i'm used to it. hahas..
prac 10 rport due tmr. i havne finish. i'm stil not doing it. T.T
finally the end of this horrid week.
sometimes, i think i'm a very selfish, self-centred person. i noe i noe, there are PLENTY of ppl out there even more selfish den me (think of one in sec school who is balantly self assuredly me-first , but when i compare with the few truly good ones who are reali unselfish (think of one in NUS and one in sec school), i feel so zibei. =(
and sometimes, i think i'm nice, caring because it's the right thing. mayb intrinsically i'm jus selfish. and evil. =/
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
i haaaaaaaaaaaatttttttteeeeeee lab reports. blah.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
i'm jus not a happy person. so there.
i jus dont have a life now. wth?
=( hai. prac test came and went. stats test came and went. funnily my anxiety lvl didn't shoot up to the max. i believe i hav almost given up. almost but not quite. pending presentation and lab report. i believe i'm procrastinating the lab report. T.T
it's al about studies. how boring. understanding the universe is chim, but so interesting,. now if only i hav some spare time to ponder over hawking's radiation, perhaps i can disprove it. ha.
now jus because u dun like it does not mean it's rubbish. T.T
i can't wait for the sem to end, i can't wait to graduate (if i can). hai. why is it always lik tat? years wil jus pass by so fast. very soon, i'l be 50 with wrinkles and decades of regret.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
i reali wish there's no school now so i can happpily put up al my stuff for sale. -.- or trade. blah. but srsly not nice means not nice. no one wil wan to trade with u.
so reali. i hav so many theories of why i'm so addicted to online shopping. barely one year i found online blogshops i found online forums, and it jus feels POWERFUL to hav sth u wan and ppl can jus pay for it. =/ but when it's sth u dun wan and no one wants it either. =( but of course selling a dress feels the best. getting back money which makes the world go round. =X
so sian. al my lab reports are screwed up. i duno wat i did this weekend. nth i gues. jus try to chiong bloody lap reports which end up screwed up anw.
disgusting. right now i rather do ten more sp essays than lab reports. blah. lab reports are such a pain in the a**.
but den again, mayb not ten more sp essays. jus one universe essay is enough to kil me. hai., i haven research yet. i haven look thru sp proj. i haven do this, i haven do tat. i haven do a single shit except for pathetic intro and methods for the bloody report. hai hai hai. =(
i'm so sian. i can't wait for this bloody sem to be over. den at least i'l wont feel so unhappy al the freaking time.
i shal do rest of the bloody thing tmr. =/
on a happier note, i lik to type off emails to beg subtly to ask ppl to trade with me clothes. i do lik to write. i lik to write, i lik to type. i lik to think about things not related to bloody chem, which is reali a huge pity because once upon a time, i reali lik chem. i miss thinking about econs and applying them to life when u read the newspapers. am reading a nice book about thoughts experiments. lik what if life is really all an illusion? lik there's this evil demon casting a spell on al of us. the clock might strike 4 o clock, or it could be striking one four times. how about squaring a circle?
ok. rambling, i noe i noe. i'm reali horribly sick of al the chemistry stuff. T.T or stats. universe stuff is too indept for me. =/ ican't wait for this sem to end. hai. =(
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
predictably i scored below average for the this sem's first CA test. waaaaaaay below. bloody p anal.
hai i should comfort myself with tat nice BC v neck dress which is in navy NOT the cyan i wan. =( i should jus buy it. and waste al my hard earn money -.- zszzz actually i should stop buying. already suffering a deficit since tuition stopped. =(
hav been a bitch these days. today felt so angry, irritated and depressed. haven felt angry for such a long time. usually anger is good cause it gives me courage to do things that are good for me but i usually dun dare do. this time however i thnk the anger was unwarranted. i think i might have been thinking too much.
hai.
on a cheerier note, dfd prac finally ended. but i rather p anal end first. pracs suck to the core.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
found my calculator lying abandoned at the lab. which goes to show how secluded the s7 lab is. or mayb how invisible my calculator is (lik me). but nvm, i'm so glad i got it back! and i learnt how to do regression on it! =D so wat if u dun allow me to use gc in pharmstats, at least i can use my normal calculator to do these crap stuf.
the eweek jus flew past. and i gave up trying desperately to keep in pace. hahas. totally abandoned the webcasts. totally heck the notes until jus recently. =/ so many deadlines and crap coming up i feel lik curling up in one corner or hide under my blanket and nv wake up.
i feel lik giving up, seriously WAT"S THE POINT?? freaking hel. and i dun hav a single trace of this thing called life. i believe i'm once again neglecting any relationships (be it frenship or watever) but unlik last time where there was abit results, there's nth now. i dun even hav a pathetic cca.
i should do sth about this. i ought to do sth about it. will i do sth about this? hai. comforts of the comfort zone.
Monday, October 05, 2009
damn. i lost my calculator. i think i left it in the lab. ARGH. =( jus wen i thot this was the best lab ever (because i actually understood wat she said).
anw. i need to shop soon. i need to buy sth NICE. why cant bc launch! i REALI superbly regret not buying the pleated sundress and v neck casual frock. ARGH. regret regret. i'm willing to buy from anyone. ARGH. i need to shop. get nice heels which i dun wear. blah.
so frustrating.
Sunday, October 04, 2009
wat a disgusting weekend. i spend so much time trawling on cozycot forums to sell off my shopping impulsive mistakes. in the end i didn't even manage to sell the ones i REALI dun lik. =/
there is stil the piling lecture notes to be read, the horrid lab reports (think tmr's expt 10 for bloody p anal) and wonderful sp. =/
but NVM. i WIL GET THRU. because there is stil the star gazing trip to bintan!!!! we got in! >< i can't wait! meteor showers!! i'm so gng to make my wishes. >< =D i only hope they don't seperate us into grps cause that would totally ruin everything.